Taking a second plunge

Drafted: 7/7/06 1.10PM Posted 2/25/07 1.14am [random self-reflective scene]

I lay awake throughout the night. Exhausted as I was, I could not sleep.

Guilt, pleasure, excitement, uncertainty and a myriad of questions bounced around in my head like a herd of stampeding elephants, threatening to knock me out with a mental concussion.

I'd always believed, always known, that I was off-center in my sexual orientation. For years I'd been engaged in fulfilling homosexual relationships,.....................